It wasn’t easy for me to make the decision to trust again.
He asked for one more chance, and I counted up all the one more chances that had already been given.  And blown.  I sat in the dark with the fear and the doubt and the uncertainty.  I got lost inside my own head, because [...]

“Are you nervous or excited?” I asked.
Jared looked up from his half of the admissions packet we were filling out for our new marriage counselor.  He shrugged one shoulder and contorted his lips the way he always does when he doesn’t want to talk about something.  If he could have disappeared into the brown paisley [...]

When I was growing up, I wanted to be my Grammy.
Actually, when I was first growing up, I wanted to be my Nana.  As far as my preteen eyes could tell, Nana was rich with money and royal blood.  She was fashionable and commanding.  She knew things that no one else in the whole world [...]

I’m sitting on a fourth floor balcony overlooking the Atlantic Ocean.  I’m looking at the beach, listening to the waves, but I haven’t stepped foot on it yet.
I haven’t stepped foot much of anywhere this weekend.  It’s after 3:00 on Saturday afternoon and I’ve left my hotel room exactly once to steal coffee from the [...]

I know it’s hard to read about someone else’s pain.
Well, unless you’re an asshole, I suppose.
But for most people, coming face to face with someone’s heartache and fear and doubts – and not being able to do a damn thing about it – that’s rough.  And man, when I feel pain, I feel pain.  And [...]

This past week has, without a doubt, been the single worst week of my life.
Up to this point.
Because I am not so stupid as to tempt the gods.
It has been worse than the week my mother and I said goodbye to my Nana.  It was been worse than the week we waited to say goodbye [...]

I try not to think about what I look like.
Instead, I tend to concentrate on how I feel.  When I’m laughing or talking or twirling, I feel happy.  I feel alive.  I feel brightly colored and twinkling and like joy itself in motion.  I let the emotions bubble up from my insides until I have [...]

I’ve whined a lot about being tired on this blog.
I hestitate to do it because everyone is too damn tired and there’s nothing more stressful about my life than yours.  But somedays, the tired outweighs the creativity and so that’s what I do.  Be tired.
And then I get nervous that maybe I’m too tired.  Maybe [...]

I got knocked up about two months after my 19th birthday.
A year later, 9 years ago today, I was married.
When you find yourself pregnant, a mother, and a wife – in that order – you give up on some fantasies. You never have the surprise proposal on a weekend getaway, with the boyfriend whose [...]

Last Thursday night, I attended the Orlando TweetUp hosted by the Orlando Sentinel in… wait for it… Orlando.
Let me tell you about how I wanted to die.
First of all, thank GOD I was meeting Shash, Susan from EggMarketing and Melanie from ModernMami there. The three of them were the sum total of the group [...]

Let me tell you now that some of you will hate this post. I’m not entirely comfortable with that right now, but I’m going write it anyway because… well, it’s what I do.
I’m using that disclaimer, in part, to avoid starting.
I’m never sure where to begin when I’m unraveling my fears.
The short version of [...]

I received a request from another blogger to do a post here. Specifically, they wanted to know what *you* – meaning you, dear reader – had to say about a certain topic.
Personally, I think that says quite a bit about you. Mainly, that you’re outspoken and engaging and awesome and basically the best [...]

I keep writing and deleting and rewriting this post.
And smoking. And explaining to my boss that it is not unproductive to smoke 3 times in one hour.
And then rewriting and deleting it again.
The fact that you’re reading anything here at all is a testament to the power of the human spirit. Or the [...]