Today is the First Day. For all of us here.
Devin starts second grade at his new school, in a new state. He’s excited and petrified all at the same time. Even though I know that he will be fine, I would give anything to take that fear from him. i know that sometimes we have to go through stuff, and not around it. And that’s just fine - for everyone else. But not my baby. I wish like hell I could spare my baby from that knot in the pit of his stomach and erase the paralyzing insecurity that keeps flicking across his face.
But, I can’t. So tomorrow I will do the next best thing and drive him to school myself, and walk him to his class, and hug him tight, and tell him one last time how wonderful he’s going to do.
And then I’ll leave - wanting to bawl my eyes out. But I won’t - not yet. Because after I drop off the oldest baby, I have to take the youngest to her “new school”. She’s thrilled to go to “emmas schoooool”. But I don’t think she realizes that she’s going to be left there. I know from experience that she’s going to cry, and cling to me, and beg me not to go.
But, I will. And THEN I will bawl my eyes out. For about thirty minutes - exactly how long it should take me to get to MY first day at MY new job.
God I hope I don’t get lost. And that I was worth all the trouble my new boss went through to get me. And that I was right.
Today I find out if it was all worth it. The move, the goodbyes, the tears, the homesickness, the overwhelming feeling of being lost in a strange world with no lifelines.
Today I find out how we’ll do. Will we really all “be fine”? Will we “do great”? Will we move onwards and upwards and build new lives for ourselves, all of us?
I guess, we shall see. Today.
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The fact that our posts today are so similar is something that I’ll take as a good sign, not as a creepy-you’re-reading-my-mind thing.
And if you actually are reading my mind, what am I thinking about now? :sex011:
(P.S. We’re gonna kick ass!)
August 19th, 2007 at 9:59 pm
here’s hoping you all have a wonderful first day.
August 20th, 2007 at 12:42 am
You think you’ll want to cry when you are dropping your kids off?
Wait until about hour 3 of working for that Nazi gorilla.
August 20th, 2007 at 5:58 am
Best of luck and success to your new venture! If he starts to cramp your style just punch him inna shoulder.
August 20th, 2007 at 7:01 am
Best of luck in your new venture. I hope y’all give yourselves some time to sort things. I’m sure you’ll kick ass.
August 20th, 2007 at 7:07 am
I’ll be sending you all lots of good thoughts today-good luck!
August 20th, 2007 at 8:24 am
avitable: to your mind - yes, I would be offended if you masturbated while I was in the office. Wait until I go home, m’kay?
JustMe: thanks!
Mr. Fabulous: Nazi? Adam’s a big pussie. I plan on spending most of my day crying to avoid having to do any actual WORK.
RW: that’s the same advice I gave my kids! You so smaht RW!
Turnbaby: what is this time thing you speak of and where do I get me some?!
jennyryan: thank you! I am also accepting chocolate (sugar free, but still).
August 20th, 2007 at 8:54 am
One day will not make or break your move. Give it at least 2. Plus, I think that there are plenty of jobs in Orlando. WDW is ALWAYS hiring….
:)
August 20th, 2007 at 10:04 am
I want first day of school pics! I hope you don’t forget to take those!!!!
I feel so sorry for all the kids in Emma’s new schoool. At least they’ll get their first taste of dictatorship!
August 20th, 2007 at 10:25 am
You will be great. The job will be great! And if it isn’t we know who to blame….(and it isn’t you!!)
August 20th, 2007 at 10:34 am
You’ll be fine. Just think about the weather there and look at the weather where you came fomr
August 20th, 2007 at 12:06 pm
Oh Lord after I talked to you I had this knot in the pit of MY stomach for you, Devin and Emma. The umbilical cord stretches. I KNOW you will all do fine. I just wish I could be scared for all of you, so all of you could just enjoy the first day.
I love you, little one.
August 20th, 2007 at 1:32 pm
I hope the first day was awesome for everyone!! You? Are awesome. To pack up and move away from everything you’ve ever known and start again in a new place takes a lot of strength. Well, it takes balls. But, you’ve clearly got both. Another thing it takes? Great shoes. Which we all know you have :)
August 20th, 2007 at 4:10 pm
Your mom is the greatest. Wow.
I bet by the time you read this, you’ll be laughing at how unnecessary the worry was. You’ll be swell, You’ll be great, Gonna have the whole world on a plate! Honey, everything’s coming up roses! *tap dances*
August 20th, 2007 at 4:25 pm
Congrats Britt!!
August 20th, 2007 at 4:48 pm
Hopefully it won’t be as traumatic as when we moved away from our friends and family to Iowa. I swear it rained everyday the first three months we were there. And no offese to your Iowa readers, but for those first few months Iowa was “Corn Pig Hell”.
August 20th, 2007 at 5:51 pm
themuttprincess: Pfft, only if they let me play Tinkerbell.
AmyD: coming up shortly, I swear!
TrishK: yes, you’re right, only a complete tool would not be able to channel my brilliance into magnificent profits!
ADW: yeah, apparently it’s raining non stop there right now. Here? Just hotter than shit.
Mom: thanks for staying up with me - made all the difference in the world!
Kellie: balls? Only the ones I’ve taken from men who have crossed me. Strength? In small spurts occasionally.
Awesome? Gosh, thanks, I’ll take it.
Brandi: yeaaahhhh, she’s ah’ight. :-)
Janelle: thank you!
Jen: hehe, it grows on you though…
August 20th, 2007 at 7:53 pm
Good luck with that!!!
August 20th, 2007 at 8:34 pm